| A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
I hate today. I hate it. I felt so alone. Surrounded by a sea of faces....but so alone. And I can't take it anymore. I found out the guy I liked smokes weed..and that bugs me. So I won't date him....and my ex called and is now making me think too much.
My uncle is on the verge of death...and I can't even take it. I feel so awful. It's so unfair for the ones we love to be sick, on their deathbed, or dead. I feel so much grief. My aunt is so upset. She is so in love with them. They have such a beautiful marriage. They are both such wonderful people. I wish I could go there and hug both of them. I haven't seen them in 3 years. :[ They live in California. I want to be there. It's so hard not to be angry over this. It's so unfair. and I don't even WANT to hear those cliche phrases, "Life sucks" "Life is unfair" I KNOW AND I DON'T CARE. IT HURTS OKAY. IT FREAKING HURTS. THERE IS SO MUCH SUFFERING IN THIS WORLD. I can't even take it anymore. I try to deal with it but sometimes it just gets so overwhelming
Strike that. He just died..
Now I am sitting in my apartment living room blasting music and alone. Not much has changed since the beginning of my college experience.... except..I had Phil. Now, I have myself. Sometimes I just want to take it all back...but I can't. i live with regret.
This is such an emotastic entry...wow.
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Here's some more pictures of Europe. Last night we went and saw fireworks downtown in Pittsburgh but they sucked cause there was so much smoke you couldn't see anything. I tried to get some good pictures but I failed cause the guy yelled at me for standing up =[ However, I did get a few sweet shots of the bridge that was behind the bridge I was on lol. I adore Pittsburgh at night. It's SO beautiful. I will get those up ASAP. But I didn't use my flash for any of them because I hate the flash. It was nice to hold my Nikon D40 though =] I haven't had it since before I left for Europe cause I wasn't allowed to take it with me =[ but I did go out and buy a new Nikon for Europe. It's very small and sleek and cute =] I used THAT for the fireworks because it had better zoom than the D40. So basically my family stood there and held my purse and all my camera stuff while I shot pictures. =] It was grand. I hope everyone had a safe 4th of July =] -Kayla |
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 So I am BAAAAAAAAAACK! It's so good to be home! That was the longest plane ride ever! 9 whole hours on the way home! I hope you guys like the few pictures I chose to put up here. I have 441 that can all be viewed at www.myspace.com/captaink08 or www.facebook.com and my name (which i won't put here) It was probably the greatest trip OF MY LIFE! I loved shopping in the Latin Quarter. I just loved shopping period actually! =] I saw soooo much! I swear Europe is made of steps and hills! We did a lot of walking but I didn't lose any weight! It was insane! We went to France first. We walked around Paris then we traveled to Normandy. Then back to Paris for one last night then we took the TGV to Switzerland. We stayed 2 nights in Switzerland. Theeeen we went into Germany where we stayed for the rest of the trip. Though we did go to Austria for about 6 hours lol. We got to tour around and see where they filmed the sound of music!! And we got to see Mozart's house! It was so cool to see all of these famous things I've only read about it in books! We climbed the Eiffel tower though! Well...we took an elevator up but I had to walk back down. Man that is a lot of stairs! Many people asked me what my favorite thing was....well I really can't answer that. Everything was so amazing. The food, the people, the shopping, the sights and the language. And of course the guys! =] European boys are so much cuter..and nicer too! I really hope I can go back someday. I would definately love to study abroad there or something like that. I also want to go to more places. I want to see all my heritage sights. Ireland and Czech. (Already saw Germany) And I want to see England and Australia! I am soo excited for what the future might hold for me! Enjoy the very limited pictures! haha <3kayla |
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|  Nighttime Shot
Close Up Flower
California
Bleeding Hearts
Rose
Mingo Creek Park
Fire Hydrant!
Daffodils
Shadows
Down at the Waterfront |
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